《破碎的一生》中英双语&注释(25)
我成年的孙子在我接受这种惊恐时紧紧握着我的手。过了一阵，他问：“移除它是会很痛苦的，你准备好了吗？”
Fearful, I asked, "Is Mar here?"
“玛尔在这吗？”我惊慌地问。
His face softened. "No. Not for a few years now."
他的脸色缓和了一些。“不，已经几年不在了。”
I could tell from his reaction what had happened, but I didn't want it to be true. "How?"
我从他的反应中猜到了发生了什么，却不愿相信那是真相。“怎么说？”
"We have this conversation a lot," he responded. "Are you sure you want to know? It never makes you feel better."
“我们总在进行这场对话，”他回答，“你真的想要知道吗？这从来没能让你感觉好些。”
Tears brimmed in my eyes. "Then I don't care if it hurts, or if I die. I don't want to stay in a time where she's not alive."
泪水漫过我的眼眶。“那我就不在乎这么做会不会疼，或者我会不会死了。我不想留在于一个她不在的时间。”
He made a sympathetic noise of understanding and then returned to his machines to hook several wires, diodes, and other bits of technology to my limbs and forehead. While he did so, he talked. "I've worked for two decades to figure this out, and I've had a ton of help from other researchers of the occult. This parasite doesn't technically exist in our plane. It's one of the lesser spawns of µ¬ßµ, and it feeds on the plexus of mind, soul, and quantum consciousness/reality. When details like names and colors of objects changed, you weren't going crazy. The web of your existence was merely losing strands as the creature ate its way through you."
Fearful, I asked, "Is Mar here?"
“玛尔在这吗？”我惊慌地问。
His face softened. "No. Not for a few years now."
他的脸色缓和了一些。“不，已经几年不在了。”
I could tell from his reaction what had happened, but I didn't want it to be true. "How?"
我从他的反应中猜到了发生了什么，却不愿相信那是真相。“怎么说？”
"We have this conversation a lot," he responded. "Are you sure you want to know? It never makes you feel better."
“我们总在进行这场对话，”他回答，“你真的想要知道吗？这从来没能让你感觉好些。”
Tears brimmed in my eyes. "Then I don't care if it hurts, or if I die. I don't want to stay in a time where she's not alive."
泪水漫过我的眼眶。“那我就不在乎这么做会不会疼，或者我会不会死了。我不想留在于一个她不在的时间。”
He made a sympathetic noise of understanding and then returned to his machines to hook several wires, diodes, and other bits of technology to my limbs and forehead. While he did so, he talked. "I've worked for two decades to figure this out, and I've had a ton of help from other researchers of the occult. This parasite doesn't technically exist in our plane. It's one of the lesser spawns of µ¬ßµ, and it feeds on the plexus of mind, soul, and quantum consciousness/reality. When details like names and colors of objects changed, you weren't going crazy. The web of your existence was merely losing strands as the creature ate its way through you."
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