《破碎的一生》中英双语&注释(9)

教会的人束手无措。那些牧师不相信我，只是跟我说，与其说我被附身了，还不如说我病了。
The doctors didn't have any clue. Nothing showed up on all their scans and tests, but they happily took my money in return for nothing.
医生们也毫无头绪。扫描光片和检查报告没有检测到任何异常，不过即便我什么都没有得到，他们还是高高兴兴地收走了我的钱。
By the time I ran out of options, I'd decided to tell Mar. There was no way to know what this all looked like from her side. What was I like when I wasn't there? Did I still take our son to school? Did I still do my job? Clearly, I did, because she seemed to be none the wiser, but I still had a horrible feeling that something must have been missing in her life when I wasn't actually home inside my own head.

最终我实在没有选择的余地了——我决定告诉玛尔。我无法想象这一切从她的视角看是怎样的。当我“不在”时我是什么样的？我还把我们的儿子送去学校吗？我还干着原先的工作吗？显然如此，因为玛尔看上去什么也没有发现。但我还是有种不安的感觉：当我没有真正地待在自己的意识中时，她的生活肯定缺失了些什么。
02.
But the night I set up a nice dinner in preparation, she arrived not by unlocking the front door, but by knocking on it. I answered, and found that she was in a nice dress.
但当那晚我准备好了一顿丰盛的晚餐时，她没有用钥匙打开门，而是敲了敲它。我去开了门，发现她穿着一身精致的长裙。